Awkward Situations

Do you ever incidentally put yourself in horribly awkwad situations?

I’ve been doing that to myself a lot lately. Why?? I have no idea.  This is what happened.

This guy that I went on one date with 8 months or so ago, started talking to me again through aim about a week ago. We did not go out on more then one date before, due to the fact that I felt he was too young for me. I am 4 years his senior and at such a young age that makes a big difference. Whilst talking he tells me that he moved to Austin and he was thinking about moving back to Dallas. A few days later we were talking and he asks me if he came to Dallas could he stay with me. I thought he meant for a day or two so I agreed. I also thought that this visit would be farther into the future.. not immediately. Yesterday he shows up with ALL of his belongings. His MOTHER dropped him off and told thanked me for letting him live with me.

When she said that my stomache shot into my throat and I had to choke back the vomit. What had I done??

I went upstairs where my living room had been consumed by black back packs and boxes of electronics. Typical 18 yr old boy crap. I was so confused and dismayed that I had to go to my room and watch a movie. He came in and tried to make out with me. I shrugged him off and told him that I was really into the movie. I spent the next hour staring at the screen and trying to formulate a plan to get him out as soon as possible without being rude.

Well.. I accomplished half of that. He confronted me and said that I was acting distant like I didn’t want him here. I was honest and told him I didn’t. That I thought he was just coming for a day or two.. and now I realize that he’s wanting to move in with me. And that I don’t have space, for another person.. not to mention the fact that I enjoy living on my own and wouldn’t want to change that unless I was in love with someone and they wanted to live with me.

Now, he’s been pouting on my couch since last night, I have to leave for the weekend in an hour and I need him out by then. But I don’t know what to say or do. It’s terribly awkward and alllll my fault. Ehh.. I’ll keep you updated on the situation.

:/

Begging for Money

So I just came in contact with a couple of websites where people post what they need money for, rent..implants.. whatever and then apparently random strangers send you money to help pay for whatever it is you need. Does this really work? If so, I want a piece of it.

Thats right… I signed up. I need help with rent and bills.. I need a new car and how awesome would it be if someone would help me out!! Hell yeah. So, I’ll keep you updated as to whether or not its a bunch of crap.. or if anyone actually sends me some money.

Meeting Up

I feel like every few minutes my phone goes off, when I look I find yet another text message asking me if I want to meet up and hang out. 90% of the time, if I do say yes, the person in question will keep pushing back the time until it becomes so late that I give up and go to bed or make other plans. When they are serious about hanging out.. it seems like all they really want to do is come over and try to get some. If one of those cases is not true.. then I’m so tired that I don’t feel like getting attractive enough to go out into public and prance about for a few hours. Battling the urge to drink away the awkwardness of most “meet ups”  because I have to drive myself home.

Eh.. whatever happened to being asked out on a date? Or hell.. being asked to go out with someone more then a few hours in advance. I’m looking for a guy who actually wants to make plans to go out later this week or the next. Not necessarily a serious relationship, or anything like that. Just an old fashioned pre-planned date. Not a meet up. Not a hook up. A date. Where the asker picks up the askee and takes them somewhere to do something that does directly involve a rubber and the friction of hips.

I’ll keep hoping. Until then.. I guess if I want some social contact.. I’m stuck with “meet ups”.

Outside of the Box

This is my first blog post outside of my myspace blog, which I have had for almost 5 years. Writing on there I can’t say some of the things that I want to say. I have to edit myself because of who all reads it. However this is a different story. 

So here I am. Open, uncensored, and real.